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06-27-2008, 09:48 PM
(This post was last modified: 06-28-2008, 10:10 AM by flash.)
I believe that this trip has joined us, not only on this forum, but in heart, mind, and spirit. Before this trip I had met some of you already and had a felt a strong connection even then. We all started to talk on the phone, shared addresses and emails and so forth. I knew each of your injuries and a lot of your stories, but now, it is even more. Unfortunately this is something that I am not sure I can describe. Here is where I need Still in Limbo and his ability to help me bring from my heart what I want to say to you all.
Mostly I see us as a group of people from many different parts of the country, Il, MI, NJ, PA, Ok, and GI (hope I did not forget anyone) who are standing hand in hand with a TRUE heart of caring and sharing, who is standing strong unwilling to let go of our hands. This group of people let me know that YOU are there for me daily and I am praying that you all know that I am there for you.
All the way home from the castle, I felt my depression due to exhaustion from the MS stripping me of the fun that I had while I was there, and suddenly I found myself asleep. While asleep, I had a dream which repeated itself many times. In this dream, I saw myself looking in the mirror. In that mirror I saw myself surround by a group of people saying, “I AM NOT A LONE.†On the other side of the mirror I began to rejoice and sing a happy song. That song rings in my head today. What a joy to know that there are people in this world who really understand, support and love unconditionally as you all do. For the first time since I lost my job, I realize that I have a life. This life is different, but it is just wonderful, because this group of loving people have filled it up. This life is different but it is filled with smiles and laughter. I can have that even if I am not working due to all of you. My family has tried and tried to help me understand this, but I could not see it. YOU have all helped me see that I can do this even more than I ever thought. None of you can even begin to imagine what I am saying unless you know me well in my day to day living. I have been running for so long…. Doing, doing, doing and just hoping that my life would hurry so that I could move beyond this awful disease that has invaded my body. Now I want to live, live, and live with laughter and kindness in my soul for everyone I meet, and most definitely for each of you.
I believe we have bonded in more ways than I can state in a simple post…unless I am longer winded than usual. (jayne I know, this is long winded anyway isn't it... ) We have truly become a family who spreads and shows love, support, and care to each other. We understand not only the injury of each person we met, but the acknowledgement that we are truly people who have dreams for the future, needs to be pain free, families that care about us, and so much more. There is a poem that I believe that describes more about what I am trying to say, and it is called “Look at me, what do you see?†This poem described an older women crying for understanding by saying I was 6 entering school, I was 18 getting married, or having children, I was 50 and a grandmother and so forth and so forth. The meaning is that we are all people living a life. We are not just a written post. We are people who have a past life, a life today. More importantly we are all people who have a dream for tomorrow. That dream has changed from our past lives, but the outcome of that dream is still the same…that is too be loved, understood, and respected for the people we are. I want you to each know that these groups of people in spite of the obstacles in their path have been challenged to reach beyond their original dreams and make new ones. These dreams shine through their smiles, kindness and respect for human life in general however, there is no doubt I see it because of how they love me and everyone else from this forum. I see many souls with a steady heart be of life that says we can’t be moved. We will live a life of laughter, kindness, and respect for ourselves and each other.
I am so blessed to know you all…. I can’t even imagine my life without each of you in it.
What a joy to know and care for such wonderfully loving people who I know will live in my heart and soul forever.
Backache and Dave…thank you so much for your overwhelming generosity and for your kindness that extended arms of love to each of us to make this happen. Keep the painting up…you are so talented. I can’t wait to paint with you again…you will teach me about Oceans in no time. I can’t wait to paint with you again.
Bill and Jayne…please come again. I enjoyed our time together so much in my home and at the castle. I am going to post a picture of Daniel’s painting as soon as everyone sees the castle pic’s I posted for all too see what a talented son that you truly have.
RN Vic…what a pleasure to meet a new friend….thanks for the talks and the support until 5 am. Smiling. HOpe your dreams all come true. Can't wait to talk to you again... welcome anytime.
Vickie..nice to see you again… get well…
Tuffy…. Love you sweety… thanks for driving so far to see us. It would not have been the say without you.
Gail..thanks for painting..you are very talented in your own right. It was very nice to see you again. Best Wishes in your new job. Can’t wait to meet Stormy.
Still and Ellen… you are both just wonderful and it was so good to meet you both. You two complement each other. You are a pair made in heaven.
Sweet tooth… thanks sweety, I can’t wait to see you again… we will you know. I will make it happen ok sweety. Also love you lots sis.
Skeeter… I love you …. Thanks for my gift…I love you. When my brother, who is the pastor in Roseburg, ask me where I received such a treasure…..and I will only say from “My prayer warrior who is an angel from heaven.â€Â
Fancy.. and Missy… thanks so much for my gift. It is beautiful and will hang proudly in my home. you have the best parents in the world. You are both blessed but I feel you know that. It was very nice to meet you both and hope to meet you again soon.
Daniel…I miss you already and Alexia says “hi.†Don’t forget, you can do anything you want to do, just never give up on yourself. You are the best.
Wyatt… keep smiling young man… you have a heart of gold that I believe will take you far in your life. Never forget that YOU too can do anything that you want to do, you just keep believing in yourself. You are an excellent painter
always in my heart...love you all Red
For all not at the castle...we missed you and love you fiercely. Red
Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.