ptsd ?

[jayne]

My PTSD is on crowds...for the last 3 years we were in Germany americans were targets for any idiot that thought he could get his 40 virgins....we were told over and over Dont dress like an American.dont act like an American and dont speak English in a crowd...dont go to known American hang outs.....we had armed guards on the playgrounds and on the kids school buses.....several times we were evacuated from the exchange or commisary for bomb threats and once while in a car coming on base a crowd of protesters rocked our cars with our kids inside....I now have an adversion to crowds or being backed into a corner..or small rooms..it will freak me out.. I cant breathe...think straight all I see is a very small circle and need to get out to breathe......I hope it will go away soon because it is becomming more and more common to be in a crowd of non english speaking people in walmart or anywhere....was it one thing that I can point to that started it....nope just 3 years of watching every move we made......