I MISS RED

[RNvic]

Jayne- thank you for starting this tread.

Red I miss our talks and hope you come home soon.

[red1030]

thank you all for your kind words. I truly appreciate them. I miss you all also. It isn't time for me to be here. When the time is right, I will know it. I have always wanted to do what I cold to help others and now I can't, so this is not the time for me to be here. I love you all... and miss you more than I can say. Admin..thanks for the reminder.... I lived by that motto for years ... now I am living by a motto that says, "I will continue to reach for the stairs and on the days that I can't reach them I will remember to forgive myself." Right now I am working on forgiving myself. When it is time to come back I will know and if you all still want me back then, well we will see how it goes. God bless you all... and know that you are in my daily thoughts and prayers... love to all Red

[RNvic]

Red glad to see you, We understand the need to take time away for your self. But come home when you can. Know that we keep you on our prayer list and think of you often. We are here for you when and if you need to talk.

[capricorn]

Nice to see you Red......AH! forgiving oneself. Very hard for some to do. My heart tells me you're one of them. Please try to lighten up on yourself......it could have been any one of us.

[Still in Limbo]

Red, Only You know what Your Life is like Right now, and Where it May Lead You! You have to Worry about You Number One, and that's Very Understandable, I Wish You the Very Best, and I Hope Your Journey Lead You Back Here SomeDay, for Those that Care and Need You!! But always Keep in Mind, Those Same People are Here to Help You, as You have Helped Them, and I know They would Help in a Minute! Be Well!

[red1030]

Good Morning all.... I have tried to post to this thread twice now and it always disappears...is that a omen that I should not come here...smiling..I am not sure ... I do however, wish to communicate to each and everyone of you how important you have all been in my life. I am so sorry that secret santa wasn't done this year. It is an amazing thrill to help others during this time of the year and to see first hand what all of your contributions do to put smiles on young children at Christmas time.

For me, I have come to an understanding of where my medical condition is going and that does not belong on a board trying to help people. Tuffy...do you remember our conversation at the castle.... well it is now. I love you all and want nothing more than to be with you all but I can't at this time. Still you were very hard on me. I am still trying to figure that one out. However, my intellect mind knows that each of us cope with loss much differently than the one standing next to us. Admin...I lived by that motto for years and it helped me clean up many nusing homes by getting the staff with me. Now however, as life does, my motto has changed...and I am working on forgiving myself so I say to my self daily, "I will continue to reach for the stairs, but on the days that I can't reach them, I will REMEMBER TO FORGIVE MYSELF.

That is something I have not mastered as of yet... I miss you all also, but now is not the time. Hopefully there will be anot her time for us all. My heart has an opening wwwhere once you all were. love you all Red

[Bad Boy Bad Boy]

Red, I am so sorry I have been slow on reading threads, and didn't respond till now. A lot going on here too with me.

I just want you to know, your worth something to even me. More than you may ever in this world ever know. When you post, I always read it, top to bottom, and sometimes more then once. Why, because you impressed me on how you spoke and put words together. It meant so much to me and I'm sure others.

I pray you take the time for yourself first, get better for you first. These are the important issues now you must deal with. And while you do this, I will wait, just to read something you post again.