A Prayer for My Brother and My Parents!

[Still in Limbo]

Thanks Again Everyone, Your Words and Thoughts have Made Me think, and I'm Much Calmer now, Thank You All Again. My Father Called Me when He got Home Last Night, and they still didn't have a Full Diagnosis on Hm, I guess He's getting a Biopsy Today, so Maybe Later Today or Tomorrow I will be able to Have some News for All of You! My Father Totally Understands How I Feel, and Years Ago, before I was Hurt, My Mother said She wanted to Speak to Me One Day so I went to See Her. She went on to Tell Me how it Breaks Her Heart that Her 3 Sons could not even be in the Same Room together, and Ask Me what She did Wrong in Raising Us. I told Her She did absolutely Nothing Wrong, this all Lies with 3 Adult Men, who have all taken Different Paths. So I gave Her Something to Ponder, and a Possible Way for the 3 of Us to Get Together and Talk it Out. I told Her to Make a List of what She feels each of Us Boys had done Wrong to Each Other, and if She could Find Something, and I made it Clearly ANYTHING that She felt I did wrong to Cause these Problems, I would Take the First Step, Apologize, and do Everything in My Power to get Us All back together! If not She's Talking to the Wrong Son, and She has to Speak to the One with the Longest List, but if it was Me, I would Surely do My Best to Rectify the Situation. Now She Totally Understands, and We have never gotten Together, because the Other 2 Had the Longest Lists, Mom Actually Said that I had Nothing on My Piece of Paper, all She could think of was Things I did Good for them. Now I'm not trying to Play the Perfect Person or Son Here, these Words came from My Mom, not Me. I told My Father that if My Brother wants to See Me all He Has to do is Ask, and I will Figure Out how to get through this Pain and be there for Him. But I also told My Father that I'm not going to Play Games with His Family, so if He wants to See Me He either has to Keep His Family in Check, or give Me a Time to Come when they are not there! I Guarantee I will not be Asked to go and See Him, I have Extended the Olive Branch, and I know My brother will Snap it in Half!! So I have again left it Up to Him, I don;t want to Cause Problems by Showing Up Uninvited, and Quite Honestly I'm in too Much Pain to go there for Someone who doesn't Care if I come or Not! I Gave My Brother John an Ear Full to think of Yesterday, but I have a Dr.'s Appt. Today, and I don't want to Make this another Small Story, which it is Turning out to be Any Way!! And to All of You that Saw My Picture or Met Me in Person, PLEASE GET YOUR EYES CHECKED!!!