A Prayer for My Brother and My Parents!

[halftrak]

still, all this week you guys have been listening to my problems and been here for me, I want you to know My prayers are going out to your family,My life is so screwed up right now I could never judge your feelings about your brother.I am here for you anytime you need to talk. We are your family too. Halftrak

[Still in Limbo]

Thanks to Each and Every One of You for Your Kindness and Support! They are having a Family Meeting Earlier Today and My Parents are going to Call Me after, I will try and Post the Results Later if I can.

Jayne, I would and Have Tossed All Feelings aside and done what You have Mentioned in Your Post about Visiting Before, not with My Brother, but with another Member of Ellen's Family. The Problem I have is His Wife and Kids, they would Cause such a Ruckus if I showed Up that it would be Very Hard on My Parents, and I don't want them to have to go through that. Also, and I Really didn't want to Mention this, but I have been Falling Lately, and My Driving is Reduced, I had to Change All of My Dr.'s from Pittsburgh to Uniontown, the Ride is Much Easier. But Thank You for the Thought, I would Love to but I know it would do More Harm then Good. My Other Brother is Back from Va., and taking My Father Today, and My Mom Spent the Night.

As much Anger that I Hold for My Brother is Offset with the Love I Have for Him, because of the Love My Parents have for Him, and I don't Wish any Ill-Will to Happen to Him. But He kind of Made His Decision when I was Injured, and has been 1/4 Mile away, and He NEVER Graced My Door or showed any Compassion for Me. I am Very Concerned, but He chose to Take Me Out of His Life, and that's where I'll Stay due to His Actions and Wishes. Sorry So Long Again, I am Hurting Emotionally, and also Physically, and need Your Shoulders Right Now to Vent, and I Need Your Support. If You don't Mind, I'll Vent a Bit More, and then Stop, but I think of All of You as Extended Family, and want to Make Myself Clear about My Brother. He Lost His Home 18 Years Ago for not Paying His Bills, and My Mother and Father put up a Temporary Wall and Split their House in Two for them to Stay for 6 Mos. or so, until He got Straightened Out and could Find a Place to Rent. He Moved in with His Wife and 5 Children, the Oldest at the Time being Approx. 10 and My Brother Still Lives there with 2 Children Left in the House. He Never Paid any Rent or gave any Money Towards Electric, etc. and Finally after 16 Years Starting Paying $300.00 per Month, and felt that was Plenty and should Include All Utilities. During the beginning of this 18 Year Period is when My Father had His Quad-By Pass, and His Health hasn't been the Same Since, and He can't take too Much Confrontation, so I never Said Anything to My Brother and My Parents, even though I should have. My Father put Clothes on All 5 Kids Backs, Helped My Brother in a Gas Station He Leased for as Long as He Could Work, and Mortgaged His House Twice to try and Keep that Business afloat, but it Ultimately Failed. Of Course Dad Paid Back the Mortgages, so He Basically Bought His House 3 Times because of My Brother. in the Last 2 Years or so He has been a Foreman at a Barge Co. that Welds and Repairs Damaged Barges and His Wife Works at Wal-Mart, and Their Gross is about $55-60,000.00. and He Pays My Dad $300.00 per Mo!! His Side is a Shambles and could Never be Repaired back to where Dad had it, and He is Hanging Around and waiting For Mom and Dad to Pass, so He can Take Over the Whole House. I'll Stop there I'm Sorry so Long, but that is just the Tip of the Problems that Boy has Caused not only to Our Family and My Parents, but His Poor Kids weren't abused, but were never given any Compassion and Support. So if You took the Time to Read this I Hope You Better Understand, and if You Read All of this Thank You because it's Much Longer than Anticipated!!

[vickinat]

Limbo,
You don't ever have to worry about writing a post that is too long, it makes you feel better to vent and helps us to understand more of what you and your parents have gone thru. I'm here if you ever have the energy and feel like talking, just give me a call. Take care of yourself and try not to let all of this stir up additional stress on you. You have been very strong thru everything that you have had to deal with.
Love
Vickie

[Tuffy]

Still,
Vent all you want and need to. That is why we are a family here. to love and support each other. Right or wrong, thru thick or thin, We stick together and try and be strong for each other.
Sorry you are falling and having more health problems. Vickie is right you don't need any more stress in your life. So Vent all you want. We are here for you.....

[jayne]

I understand completely my brother......all I wanted was for you to be okay what ever happens...

[Still in Limbo]

Thanks Guys, with My Daughter Rolling Her Truck, My Conditioning Worsening, and now My Brother with Cancer has Me just about at a Breaking Point!! I'm So Glad I Have this Forum Right Now, I'm trying Very Hard not to Lose it!! Thanks Again, You Have no Idea How Much You All Mean to Me, Your Support I feel will Pull Me Through!!

[sweet tooth]

sweetheart we will always listen to your venting if that is what will make you feel better , i kinda know where your coming from ,i was the black sheep of my family ,my brother and sister marrried brother and sister so that left me out of their circle and they were a lot older too well lets just say my sister would have gotten her head bashed in with a poker if skeeter hadnt grabbed it out of my hand so i know how you feel maybe it would be best to stay clear besides that it would only upset you more please take care of YOU !!!i know im showing my bad side

[Bummer Knees]

Still In Limbo

Although I have never meet you in person, you are a person whose love & compassion shines in the words you write.

God has a plan for all of us, when we are born, when we are sick, & when we die.
And he has his own plan for your brother and a purpose for those plans.

Bummer Knees

[Tuffy]

Bummer, If Still didn't have a wife,( she's a real sweetheart) and I was 40 years younger, Well ya know what I mean. He is a very compasonate guy and good looking to...... He even like's animals. LOL

[Bummer Knees]

Tuffy

I saw a picture of Still on the forum, and yes he is good looking.
And his wife is a very pretty lady, they make a great couple!

Tuffy, Your not that old, 40 years younger that would make you about 10?