Already fed up...

[Injured@Work]

You guys have already been such a big help to me, but I need to vent and don't know where else to do it. I figured what better place then to do it here with people that understand. I have only been dealing with workman's comp for a little over 2 months and I'm tired of crying and worrying about it. I am so frustrated at this point that I'm about ready to say screw it. What started out as an annular tear/buldged disk in my back that was supposed to heal in a few months has kept on hurting to no end. I'm pumped up on pain killers constantly which I'm sick and tired of. I was sent back to work only to experience more pain during that. I've tried to get the Dr. to modify my restrictions, and he's refused. I've talked to my employer about modifying them so that I can come to work, and they've refused. So I tried to get the Dr. to take me back off of work and he's refused that too. In the mean time I have no source of income and a baby to provide for...thank God for my fiance or we could do it, but rent is due in a few weeks and we have no means of paying it as of now. My lawyer was supposed to be collecting my medical records so he could start dealing with this crap only to find out from the Dr.'s office today that he has not even requested them. I was scheduled for an appointment with my specialist on Monday, but his office has now cancelled that appointment due to the fact that I told them that I can not afford a trip down to their office which is 2 1/2 hours away so that they can do a CT myelogram which my fiance would have to take off of work for so he would be loosing out on a whole days wages as well. They stated that there's no use in me seeing him without this test...isn't the pain I'm having enough of a reason? Doesn't their office believe me? I'm fed up with this whole system. I'm not trying to sound like a victim by any means, but I get hurt at work and suddenly I'm the bad guy? Is that how it works? I just feel like everyone involved is against me anymore. It seems like I'm crying constantly either due to the pain or something to do with this whole thing. I don't do anything anymore. I feel like a bad mommy because I'm not doing a very good job at providing for my baby girl not to mention that I'm always dealing with something to do with this and feel like we're not getting any quality time any more. I've had it, but I don't think that giving up would be an option at this point even if I wanted it to be. I need a push to keep going...

[sparkey]

You really need to do what the doctor orders you to do. The CT myelogram will help them to see what is really going on and can possibly treat you in some way or another. If you refuse to go to the doctors this could also effect your wc. They are to reimburse you for mileage for doctors appointments, medical tests, court if you are called to go because they requested it. They pay .58 cents a mile now.I drive 2 1/2 hours a month to my doctors appointment and then send the adjuster my mileage. They pay me within the 30 days.

If you are crying alot now, it may only get worse as time goes on. Get yourself some help for depression and someone to talk to ( therapist ). After a few months it could cause you to have Chronic pain which is no fun. I have been getting worse in the depression dept. also. Not wanting to do anything lately because of the pain. Depression plays a big part in your injury. Also people on here have mention help from certain services such as churches etc. to help with food, possibly bills. I am not sure how that works as I never got to that point of needing to thank god.

Do not give up. Hang in there and take each day at a time. Make sure you go to all your appointments and if that doctor is to far, try to see if they can schedule one closer to you.

[capricorn]

Hi Injured.....I feel so bad BUT will also tell you not to give up. Sparkey said it about the depression and chronic pain. I had a breakdown 4 months after I was injured. Started in the middle of a busy street. I didn't think I'd make it home. It was a turning point for me. Two +years later I finally started to take something for depression. You have pain to begin with and then the depression worsens it all. Injured.....I think you need to look at your attorney and ask him what he's waiting for. My attorney and the wonderful people here are my saving grace. You need to be able to depend on your attorney to be doing the best he can for you not putting more worries on you. You need to heal and he needs to do his job. I would call and find out what his intentions are. As Sparkey said there are several places you and your fiance can go for financial help. Try to take care of yourself, work out the personal problems that WC has brought into your life. With the help of God all will work out in the end. It's a long hard battle. God bless.

CAP

[jayne]

ok in turms you can relate to...your baby falls and skins its knee you wash it put meds and a bandaid on it kiss and watch her go...you hope this is all the damage....what you can see....but she keeps crying about it...you keep kissing and putting band aids on it but since its all you can see its all you can do.....but the pain is making your baby cry and its hard for her to walk.......YOU TAKE HER TO THE RIGHT DOC AND GET IT X RAYED......its broke he fixes it.....now without the xray you didnt know it was broke she could walk on it...it didnt look broke.....the same with your injury without the right tests HE DOESNT KNOW WHATS CAUSING YOU PAIN OR HOW TO FIX IT....get to the doc ASAP and find out the problem...go to a local church,your salvation army what ever and get help to go to the doc cuz without that he doesnt know how to fix you...

[red1030]

Hurt my heart goes out to you. I realize that you are in a terrible situation however, I also know that what jayne and everyone else said is absolutely true. As a nurse, I do know that there isn't even an insurance company who will pay a doctor who diagnosis without a test to confirm it. Pain is very subjective and what that means is that pain can't be seen by others it can only be felt by you so most likely this is why you feel they may not believe you. The medical field goes strictly by what the test say. Go get this test done, wait for the result, and have hope that the test may take you out of work so you can spend all your energy on getting better.

Hurt... I am also concerned about your depression. Possibly you could explain to your lawyer what is happening and then he could work on getting your some mental health assistance. Almost everyone on here who is with an injury have some sort of concern with depression so do not feel alone or without hope. Hope is the key here. It is very difficult to maintain hope when you are in so much pain all the time. first is first... decide if you need to find another lawyer or keep the one you have, find a way to take this test, discuss with your lawyer about your depression issues as a result of the length of time that you are living with pain, fear of what lies ahead, and fear of loss finances and how to pay your bills to live. These are a valid points and they need attention immediately. Protect yourself by standing up to the lawyer in an assertive way and ask for his or her help with all your issues.

In terms of finances you may be eligible for food stamps to help with food. Also if your child is under the year of one, you may be eligible for Wick especially if you child needs forumal with Iron (just have a doctor write that prescription)...which will give you baby formula, cheeze, and many other food products. As they have said above you can discuss your needs with the salvation army, churches especially if you are associated with one, clubs and so forth. Call your county office to see if there are any free food banks in y our county also. It looks like you have a lot to do. this will keep your mind a little bit off of your pain. Good luck to you, join in with us in our silliness, fun, and just plain laughter.... and it will help to keep your mind off of your pain. Good luck Red

[jayne]

wic is for children under 5 in okla is that the same everywhere?

[sweet tooth]

i know ga goes higher than one year so good luck and may god bless

[Bummer Knees]

If you will contact you local United Way office they will point you to non-profits that will help you & your family.

United Way is listed in your local phone book.

[sparkey]

I never thought of that advice. Good thinking! My daughter has WIC for my grandson, but when my granddaughter turned 5 they shut her off. There is insurance for every kid here in NH. It is called " healthy kids". There must be one in every state. If for some reason your insurance at work is at risk being out. This is covered till they are 21 if still going to school if I am not mistaken. Pretty much the whole entire time of growing up. Dental etc.

Remember your #1 priority is to take care of YOU. You are the one that is going to be in charge of your body and should have all the test that your doctor recommends in order for him/her to find a cure/diagnosis. The longer you pro-long the test, the longer you will be suffering and depression will only get worse with you not knowing why you are in pain. You need to do this to make yourself well enough to take care of your child who loves you and wants her mommy back. At least give 100% effort to get well : )

PS, Also when it came time for me to go to my hearing, i was able to say within the 1 1/2 yrs. of my injury, NOT ONCE DID I MISS A DR's APT. and went to every treatment I was suppose to go to.

Just a few weeks ago I was suppose to go to a appointment for a gangloin injection a few days after my hearing, and my ride backed out at the last min. I needed to have someone drive me home. That was the ONLY time I ever missed anything to do with my getting treatment. I have another treatment the 30th. Finding rides 2 1/2 hours away are very difficult. Good luck in your treatments.[/align]

[red1030]

jayne...I think you are right. The last time I worked in a Wic center..I was a student and my memory is most likely bad. It is a federal program so all states would be the same. They can be more, but not less than the federal reguations about it. It is a good program however, and really has helped a lot of children to get a good start in life. The only criteria I remembered was that the child had to be low on Iron or have a low CBC which indicates Iron Levels. Love Red