Sorry I Haven't been Posting Much!!

[Hurt Hoosier]

Always in my prayers. Always here waiting and willing to listen, just like everyone else. (As you can tell by just the few responses so far. I'm sure there are way more who feel the same as well.)

[Bummer Knees]

Still In Limbo

I have noticed you haven't been on much and have been worried about you, yet not wanting to bother you.

My prayers are with you and I understand the stress you are under. This stress will only make your medical condition worse. Is there a special movie or book you would enjoy that would help get your mind off of things.

I want you to know that you are my strength on this forum, and your courage has given me the strength to cope with the many medical challenges I have been faced with in the past couple of years.

Now I am asking you to pull from you strength within, Still you are one of the strongest people I know.

Saying prayers.

Bummer Knees

[capricorn]

Hi Limbo....I'm still one of the only ones who calls you that. First know that you are always in my prayers as are all of our forum family. Will say some extra ones for you and pray that the deterioration ,pain and limitations stop where they are. As Jayne said come in for some love and comfort. We are here always for you.

Bummer is right. When Hubby was in the hospital, all 3times in the past couple of months I had the worse sciatica attacks I ahve ever had and they were one on top of the other. I would get rid of one after a week or so and the other side would start. I believe the stress was making me worse. I understand we have very different lumbar problems but tightening due to stress makes everything hurt more. Try to relax and know that your forum family is talking to the Lord constantly with your name on our lips.

CAP

[Still in Limbo]

Thanks Everyone for Your Thoughts and Concern!! The Biggest Problem for Me is, there is absolutely No Stress for Me right Now!! That's what I think Pis@@s Me Off so Much!! I Received My Back Pay after all of this Time Fighting,My Wife and Kids are Happy and Doing Great, Ellen Completed Her Dream Guest Room She has been waiting Patiently For, and My Brother-in-Law is here Installing New Hardwood Floors for Us. Everything I wanted to do for My Wife and Kids is getting Done, and I believe this is where My Problems Started. Now don't get Me wrong, this is not Ellen's Fault at All, because She didn't Push Me too Hard, and I Rested, but We Visited a Ton of Stores Price Shopping and Buying the things We have waited so long for, and I haven't had to Lift One Finger to do any of the Work!! My Kids were Here to take Up the Carpeting, and Little Lucy and I were back in My Den with no added Worries than any Normal Time!! But by going to the Stores and getting in and out of the Blazer, and Walking, I noticed I guess just how Bad I Really am, and it kind of Hit Me Hard!! I'm Hoping to God that I didn't do Something to Accelerate My Retrolethesis by so much Shopping, and I Hope this Turns Around. And on Top of All of this, I got a Bad Pack of Fentanyl Patches, and I have Chemical Burns on My Stomach so Bad the Pharmacist wants Me to Call the FDA and Report the Batch Number. It Just Kills Me that when I wait and Fight so Long for this Money to Arrive, and I try and be even 1/10th Normal and go to a Few Stores I have to Hurt this Bad!! I am just Hoping this Pain Starts to Decrease, it's not Muscle Pain I'm Used to that, this is Deep Nerve and Never Ending Pressure Pain! If it doesn't Stop soon, I will call My Dr. for an Emergency Appt.! Thanks for Listening, I'll be Sure to let You Guys know what Transpires, and Thanks Again for Your Support and Shoulders to Lean On!!!

[jayne]

or could you be a bit like Bill and hate the fact that others are doing for you what you want to do for yourself...he really gets down when he cant do what he wants to do what he always done before and has to watch someone else do it for him

[Bummer Knees]

Still

As much as I love to shop it is the one thing that causes me so much pain. The nerve pain in my legs escalate, as does the pain in my low back, add the neck and knee problems, well you get the picture. The cause of it is exactly what you said, the getting in and out of the vehicles and the walking.

You are doing exactly what you need to be doing, resting.

Congratulations on the back pay.

[capricorn]

Oh my dear friend . I have to agree with Jayne and Bummer. I find getting in and out of the car to cause extremely bad flare ups with my back and knee. I promised myself I wouldn't do more than 1-2 stores at any given point. Rest and feel better.


CAP

[Bad Boy Bad Boy]

Limbo oh limbo,

come on over buddy, you can sit with me and watch people paint my eves on the house. Oh did I mentioned there only about 50 feet up. Heck, I don't miss going up there anymore...

Hint Buddy; I do all my shopping research on-line and by phone and fax these these days. Then it's a one stop shop for me. Some work I might do, and the wife simple doesn't rush me anymore... When I re-did the downstairs bathroom from scratch, walls, tile, cabinets, painting, toliet, sink, new all new plumbing, all new lighting, replace the electic wiring and switches. It took me some time. The tile, I got my daughters husband to do. He done everything by my advise and watchful eye. He got to learn a trade, and I got the tile, which is darn near perfect, and very close to having someone to come and do it. I was a fully trained Lincoln / Mercury Technician for the 21 years I last worked. But I always loved home remoldeling. What I can't do, I first learn the correct way to do it. Then go at it with or without help and by trail and error till it's almost perfect.

Limbo, never get yourself down over things people are willing to help you with. You are helping them learn at the same time. They might feel proud and glad to help you. So never get yourself down. If they don't want to do it, move on and find the kid next door. There is always a way my friend. being the boos of the project sometimes is as good as doing the work too.

[Bad Boy Bad Boy]

Limbo, I learned things in my life, do you mind if I share them with you. And others of course..

I've learned that I like my teacher because she cries when we
sings "Silent Night".
Age 5

I've learned that our dog doesn't want to eat my broccoli
either.
Age 7


I've learned that when I wave to people in the country, they
stop what they are doing and wave back.
Age 9


I've learned that just when I get my room the way I like it,
Mom makes me clean it up again.
Age 12


I've learned that if you want to cheer yourself up, you should
try cheering someone else up.
Age 14


I've learned that although it's hard to admit it, I'm secretly
glad my parents are strict with me.
Age 15


I've learned that silent company is often more healing than
words of advice.
Age 24

I've learned that brushing my child's hair is one of life's
great pleasures.
Age 26

I've learned that wherever I go, the world's worst drivers
have followed me there.
Age 29


I've learned that if someone says something unkind about me,
I must live so that no one will believe it.
Age 30


I've learned that there are people who love you dearly but
just don't know how to show it.
Age 42


I've learned that you can make some one's day by simply
sending them a little note.
Age 44


I've learned that the greater a person's sense of guilt, the
greater his or her need to cast blame on others.
Age 46


I've learned that children and grandparents are natural allies.
Age 47


I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems
today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow.
Age 48

I've learned that singing "Amazing Grace" can lift my spirits
for hours.
Age 49

I've learned that motel mattresses are better on the side away
from the phone.
Age 50


I've learned that you can tell a lot about a man by the way he
handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and
tangled Christmas tree lights.
Age 51


I've learned that keeping a vegetable garden is worth a
medicine cabinet full of pills.
Age 52


I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your
parents, you miss them terribly after they die.
Age 53

Now I am 53, so learning stopped for me till I'm 54... So I share others learning with you from here...


I've learned that making a living is not the same thing as
making a life.
Age 58


I've learned that if you want to do something positive for
your children, work to improve your marriage.
Age 61


I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance.
Age 62

I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catchers
mitt on both hands. You need to be able to throw something back.
Age 64


I've learned that if you pursue happiness, it will elude you.
But if you focus on your family, the needs of others, your
work, meeting new people, and doing the very best you can,
happiness will find you.
Age 65


I've learned that whenever I decide something with kindness,
I usually make the right decision.
Age 66


I've learned that everyone can use a prayer.
Age 72


I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be
one.
Age 82


I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch
someone. People love that human touch-holding hands, a warm
hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.
Age 90


I've learned that I still have a lot to learn.
Age 92

[red1030]

Hi Still and others, you sound so like me in so many ways and yet we suffer with two completely different health concerns. I can't relate to the pain that you are feeling. I do have a lot of pain in the mornings most of the time, sometimes not, but I am sure that while I believe it to be pain, it is not at all to the level of yours. Mine is stiffness which feels like I am frozen through and through and then I begin to thaw. However, even though I can't relate to your pain levels, I can relate to the exhaustion and just pure aggitation that you can't do more or that if you try to be even a 10% of what you did before, that you may pay the price for weeks. When this happens to me I am just completely agitated with myself, not others but myself.

Still I decided a long time ago that I have to make my choices on how I will handle my time. I must prioritize and not set unrealistic expectations. I am not very good at it, but it is a goal that I am aiming to achieve. For instance, I am always busy unless I am sleeping of course, and I am not someone who can just sit idol and chit chat so I had to learn to say "no" and "I can't" do something etc. That was one of the most difficult things for me to decide to say. Saying "no" was a sign of giving up or being a weak women. Sometimes when I say it, I even hear my self say, "I was in the US Navy for Goodness sake, why can't you do it." Then I have to admit to myself, if I say I will do it, I may be heading towards failure and that is even more difficult to handle and the next thing I know, depression rears its ugly head again.

So why am I saying this, because accepting and knowing are two different things. Still you have always been a man who played hard, worked hard, and most likely loved hard. This is one of the worst things that could ever happen to you, to find yourself in a place where you are dependent upon others from your financial affairs, to your playing time, to loving time...to this all adds up to your quality of life time. I know it is for me. However, you and I are both survivors and you and I both will leave a path of learning, education for others, and love inspite of how we feel deep down. Every day I learn so much more than I knew yesterday. None of us kn ow what the future will hold, but I am certain that for you and for me, it will hold a life filled with truth, honor, and love for all those who come in contact with us. To me, that is everything. I have been saying something to myself lately and it says, "I will continue to reach for the stars, and try very hard not to take it personally when I can't reach them." This is my goal this year...to accept the things that I can't change and to change the things that I can. I can't stop reaching for the stars even when my disease takes me to the bed forever...even when I am bed bound, I will find something for me to do even if it is only in my head and in my dreams. We can do this brother...we can. I love you little bro...I know you know this.

I am so happy for Ellen...and for you. How nice to know you are helping this wonderfully beautiful women fulfil her dreams. You are a great person my friend. Love Red