Update on the blue monster

[monster]

Well the last couple of weeks haven't been the worst but they haven't been the greatest either. Many of you know my BF and I don't get along to well anymore. We have finally split and for good this time. Because things have been bad for so long I felt comfortable enough to post a very short profile on two different dating sites. Tomorrow I am going to Big Bear to meet a fireman who sounds absolutely incredible on the phone.

I am going with no expectations, just hoping to have another good friend that I can add to my list if nothing else (that list of friends is long thanks to you all )

I also had a garage sale today where I brought some of my plumeria out. The response was terrific and I sold almost 200.00 worth of them. The money will really help but I think they will spread the word and that this might actually take off. Now I need to be able to put some of the money I am earning back into it but I won't be able to until I find a way to pay the bills....so I my actually run out of plumies before I can buy more, LMAO!!!

Anyway I think at least my personal life is looking up regardless of what happens tomorrow. If there is no connection then I will meet someone new and date until I find someone who makes me happy. I am SO tired of being miserable and its showing in all parts of my life these days. This is why I have not been here...I have been a miserable lump the last two weeks, but I am once again excited about life. I am trying to put the pain out of my mind with happiness. Although I'm not succeeding real well with that, having a smile instead of a frown on my face constantly is helping my mental attitude tremendously.

You all know I love ya and I'm sorry I haven't been around to be supportive. I hope you are all as well as possible and that life is looking up for you as well.

Love and hugs,
your happier blue monster

[sparkey]

I wish you luck in finding happiness Monster. If anything, it may take away the pain alittle to keep your mind on much better things in life. Being happy.

Good luck and keep us informed how it goes. The reason i am called " sparkey" is because i love firemen. I collect firemen stuff and even had a fireman NYC calander signed for me from a online friend that went to a firemen benefit. Talk about a " HOT" calander...LOL.

My friends saw how much i loved firemen and all the stuff that goes with it that i got that nickname years ago. I use to be accused of pulling the fire alarms in the hospital when i worked there..LOL.

Have fun.

[jayne]

MMMMMMMMMM I am so happy for you....you need some fresh eye candy in your life....and hell girl I have lotsssssssss of seedlings...just dont know how to get them to california......

[capricorn]

Monster .... You have never been neglectful of us because we are always on your mind. That being said CONGRATULATIONS> It's such a hard step but you took it. I wish you all the best in your journey for happiness. May not happen overnight but should be fun along the way. Please make sure it it. Prayers for a happy life.

Love you,
CAP

[Lilly]

Monster....I hope you find the man of your dreams!
You WILL. But the fun is in the search hehe
Take care and (((((hugs))))) for you! Lilly

[Bummer Knees]

Monster, good luck on tomorrow.

My friend, the injured nurse meet a really nice guy online. They send every other weekend together and are now planning a future together.

[tweety00]

Glad the yard sale went so great .... Now the recipe for a great man .. each of us want the best for you .. so go have some fun to make that smile stay on your face ...

[red1030]

monster... you are making me cry, however, they are happy tears. You work so hard with your plants and it looks like you may have an opening here. I am so happy...what do you say...happy dance... happy dance... well I can at least write it and feel it even if I can't do it...(dance)...smiling... you just made my day ... Love you lots sweetie... Red

[vickinat]

Monster,
Enjoy yourself tomorrow, (but not too much, hehe). I hope you have a great time. Congrats. on your succesful yardsale.
Take care
Vickie

[monster]

OMG, he is almost to good to be true!!! He is a Federal Firefighter (I think that's what he called it I was to busy taking in the sights to remember for sure <insert a BIG happy face here, LOL>. He travels all over the place putting out forest fires. We get along great, he took me to a really nice dinner where I ordered potato wedges cause I couldn't make up my mind what to get as it all looked so good (I wasn't very hungry at the time)!

He drove us and his doggy Cinder up as far as we could go on a mountain top and we actually hiked for a bit (although he was very considerate and didn't take me very far). It was beautiful and I just got home about an hour ago
Soooo, I hope I am not jumping the gun but I think we might possibly see a lot of each other. He is planning on taking me riding and is busy today putting his bike back together.

At the moment I couldn't be happier but I'm exhausted and going to bed

Oh yeah, my AME is tomorrow and that's a good thing as I'm really broken today If I'm not around much for a bit it's because I'm trying to start a new chapter in my life and remember how to be happy again. I will check in during the week but if I disappear for a few days here and there you will all know where I'm at!!!

Love and hugs,
Jerri

PS - Tuffy you couldn't have been more right about anything in your life!!!!