not well

[capricorn]

Hi everyone ...... I don't think anyone can help but I just feel the need to let it out. For the past two weeks I have had no energy, am depressed, hate the difference in the way I look, have no interest in hubby's treatment or my daughter's new place. I am angry, agitated and irritated all the time. I sleep 10 hours every night which is a totaly turn around from only sleeping 4 hours a night for many years. I saw the Rheumi and he thinks this is all a result of what I have been through in life and now I have fibro but he didn't offer me any treatment. I see the Endocrinologist the end of May for my thyroid but have been this route before. Blood work is normal, thyroid is enlarged with nodules. I have never felt this bad with so many symptoms before and never for this long. INstead of being happy with what I have I all of a sudden resent everything and everyone close to me. I though tI was on the pity pot but don't now. I don't know if I've been hurt so much in the past that the past month of upsets was the "icing on the cake" and I just don't care anymore. I talked to my attorney about settling my case so I don't lose my disability end of my pension and I couldn't have cared less what $ amount he came up with. I don't seem to care about anything. Nothing gets a rise out of me anymore. WHen I have to make a phone call let's say to comcast about a problem , or another normal call I would have made in the past I get nauseous. I don't want to talk to anyone or be annoyed anymore. This is why I haven't been here often lately. I just have nothing to say and don't want to try and say the wrong thing. I feel as if I have been a "good girl " all my life for nothing. My life fell apart a couple of weeks ago. Hubby and daughter are doing great. I am suffering the after effects. God be with all of you.

CAP