My last update

[grundig]

Vickinat, you may feel depressed, angry, and sorrow, That is perfectly normal for a person, But Please ,Trust in the Lord, for he has a strange way of working sometime,s.
God Bless You.

~~~Lean on me,,,,When your not strong,And I,ll be your freind so we can carry on ~~~

[red1030]

Vickie, I truly know how you are feeling. What a rough road to be toward at the age of 44 years that you are going to have some problems with your back for the rest of your life. The first thing that hits is that we are vulnerable to changes and this creates this feeling of hopelessness or powerlessness. Interesting enough however, none of us are hopeless or powerlessness...we are now challenged in ways that we were not challenged before the new injury or disease. Even with the change and with the new challenges we still have options and free will to make our decisions about our life. I know that sometimes, when you are hurting decisions don't mean a lot, but they do over the course of your life.

Vickie there is no doubt that when you live with pain 24/7 you are challenged daily. Your level of acceptance will help you obtain the peace that you so need right now. I agree with Pooh, I believe that counseling would be very beneficial for you right now, and I am sure that most of us with life altering health issues have visited a counselor at one time or another. I have and it was very helpful. Sometimes just venting to someone or having them help put your thoughts back into some rationale order helps tremendously.

Vickie if you need to talk give me a call and I will call you back. This is a very tough time, but it a time that you need to stay on the forum. I have seen you in action on the forum from the computer itself, and you love this forum and these people. They are here with you and you with them. Just keep venting and soon it will all make sense to you again.... and you know what I think about your daughter, she got that strength from somewhere and I suspect it was you.... chin up.... love life.... love your self... and all else will work out eventually...love Red

[vickinat]

I'm gonna start a new thread to thank you all, please read it.
Love Vickie