I'm saying goodbye

[CRABBY]

I just wanted to say goodbye for awhile, received last check from unemployment today, and it looks like nothing good coming in near future...and I really cannot deal with this situation right now....I'm just tired of hitting head against the wall so to speak.....I love you all and I really mean this, but my heart is so heavy right now, I beginning not to be able to function anymore....and I'm just so tired of thinking and trying to figure it all out, I don't have it in me anymore....please take care and I hope all goes well with all of you for the new year...it just has too....love ya

[vickinat]

Crabby

Take the time you need, but remember what I said in my email, to call me if you need to talk. Please take care of yourself and come back to us soon.
Love
Vickie

[halftrak]

Crabby, I've been there as far as receiving my last unemployment check, so I do know how you feel. All I can say is to hope for the best and take care of yourself.Anytime you want to chat you can always pm any of us I am sure.Halftrak

[Kentuckygal]

I crabby I dont know what to say but that I love and will pray I will miss you for u are need here

[tony47]

Crabby, please dont give up. Stay with us here. We all need to know that we are not alone in this fight. Me as well as alot of us here know what you are feeling, but it's better to be with others who have the same problems and feelings so we know we are not alone. We are here for you anytime you need us ..... Tony !!!!!

[sweet tooth]

miss you already

[ksgirl]

Crabby, I know you are having a bad time right now, just please remember that we do care about you!

[monster]

Crabby - you need to get back here right now girl with your family that loves and cares about you. I just emailed you....Ditto what everyone above me said, especially Tony

[CRABBY]

I know you all do, and I appreciate all you wonderful words of compassion and encouragement....I've had some conversations with Monster, Tuffy and Vickinat this early evening and have agreed to do some more form filling out and checking resources and such....I'm sorry, I'm just so tired....I mean physically...and I am having so much trouble with focusing....and yes all of you are truly the only ones that understand the frustration and dispair I'm feeling at this point in my life today....I just feel as if I'm being swallowed up by sledge...and I can't see the light anymore...I just wish the depression would go away....or I wish I could get the medicine I need to help, but if you can't take it daily (which I can't because I don't have enuff of it) it doesn't work as it is suppose to....I just wish someone could see how their actions have effected not just my quality of life, but of all of ours....I'm becoming more and more resentful daily at the thought that my former employer and the w.c. adjuster and their attorney go about life knowing they have a paycheck and insurance and they are free to purchase food, and gifts and such for the holidays, and I have to worry about how I'm gonna keep the heat, electicity and necessities on...and I would ask my doctor for more medicines to keep me afloat, but the last time I went to see him, he looked like I was such a low life...and I'm not used to be looked at like this....it hurts....never in my life have I ever felt this way....I was always a survivor...but I never been treated this way, and I don't like it....I never had to ask for assistance, I never worried about bankrupsy or paying my bills or losing my home...and it is literally killing me.....and never suffered loosing friends for life before either...no one knows how you feel until they have walked in your shoes, but I know all of you have....Even my pastor who said he would call, hasn't ...hmmm I don't know what I've done in my life to deserve all this...and if this is a test, well I guess I've surely failed....please give me a few days to try and gather myself again....and I guess I jumped to fast today, with saying goodbye, but I don't want to lose any of you either!!! you're all I got....and I don't want to bring any of you down any further with what all you have on your plates too....just know I love you all and I'll be back soon....I'm just very confused and hurt...thanks for listening to my sob story once again....I hope all of you have a wonderful holiday.....

[monster]

Okay girl, don't make me send no 'piders to see you, you know I will. You are not spending the holiday without at least calling and talking to us or something. If I have to call every five minutes I will and if that doesn't work I will start collecting eight legged bugs. Now you go and try to get some sleep and I will call you tomorrow or you call me but don't make me get on a plane with a bag full of 'piders as I'm not sure how I'm going to explain that. I love you dearly, you have been a wonderful friend...there is no need for you to go through this alone...you have an ugly blue monster you can call anytime, day OR night I don't care when you call just so long as you do. If you need a day or two I understand but any longer than that and the march of the 'piders with their monster leader is on girl!!!