Birthday Rant

[monster1963]

I'm sorry I have to agree with Jayne being one of those who lost everything. I have not yet read or listened to anything on the site you posted and I feel for the man who lost his legs. If someone were willing and would cut off my legs to stop the pain in my entire body I'd gladly hand them the knife.

Usually I can take the pain. But when I haven't slept for days on end and the pain is so bad it makes your brain foggy (either from pain, lack of sleep or both) sometimes it's difficult to even figure out what the hec to wear that day much less run a business.

Just my opinion. Oh, I read up on RSD the other day. From what I saw it affects adjacent limbs I believe. Hopefully she won't lose the use of both arms. I will continue praying for her and hope she will somehow find some relief.

Edited - the docs have finally confirmed that I have RA, Fibro and Epstein Barr Virus on top of the injuries as well as extremely low B-12 levels which I now give myself shots for. I had 3 open shoulder surgeries (2 left and 1 right) in less than 6 months hoping to regain the ROM and strength in my arms once again. My neck, back and left knee are still bad as nothing other than injections, etc were done.

I say all this because I don't have one injury that would disable me by itself. However the combination of the above things have dropped me like a rock. I made the mistake of moving out of the desert and into the humidity. That alone has made me much worse. I couldn't afford to stay in cali it was to expensive and now I cannot afford to mover period.

I have very rarely heard Angel complain. She is going through alot and I think we all might need to be a little more forgiving.

[bronco54501]

Very good story Admin....

I have not lost everything yet, I still have my wife, and family... We live month to month with threats of forclosure on our home, My wife and I are also ones that many days dont eat so our kids can.. This wc world has ruined our credit, I have 2 years to either pay the house off or refinance .. We have several judgments against the house because we canot afford to make the payments and now a credit card company has slipped through the procedure and got a judge to order a garnish of my wifes pay at 200 per week.. We have been trying to fight it but with no prevale the garnish is probably going to happen.. I think my son left to montana because of the stress in our home and the lack of money.... I pray some day this nightmare will be over and can put most of it behind us...

As for UA, I pray for her and hope she finds the strength to come back... I forgave her after I read her post, just as she should for give us for not reconizing her birthday... I for one dont go to the first page, my link goes right to the forum... Heck my sister hasnt wished me happy birthday for years, I still love her..

Maybee Admin can work his magic, maybee our birthday will come up like our private messages do.......just a thought......

[UndercovrAngel]

I'm sorry if some of you took my post the wrong way. Yes, I was upset about no birthday wishes.... but the main point I was trying to get across, and one person recognized, was that the RSD I had been able to contain to both lower extremities had now gone into my left arm and affected it's use greatly. I won't know until I see my pain management Dr on the 10th of September if he will be willing to do the stellate blocks my ortho ordered,or if I will have to go to a new Dr located in Grapevine, TX.

The RSD is also causing new issues in my feet/ankles with swelling so bad I can't get shoes on any more and there is hardly any flexion left. Between that and the affects of the RSD on my left arm, I am left with hardly any ability left to drive... but if I am to continue getting treatment, I have to force myself to do so and then I end up flat on my back for the next day or so after driving.

I am also left with the ability to only use my right hand/arm to do everything else with. And I was already having issues with it due to the work comp injury in '08 that never got treated. It's taking me a lot longer to type anything out to post on any of the forums I belong to, as well as facebook and now my neurologist is talking surgery on my c spine to try and alleviate the problems with my right hand/arm. If it goes south as the ulnar nerve transposition did, I will be left with RSD in all 4 extremities and no cure (it can be put into remission, but the slightest bump or turning wrong can cause it to come back even worse than before).

I am truly sorry if I offended anyone with my post. I didn't know that I was "biting" anyone. And yes Bummer, I was in a dark and dangerous place. Had Randy not been here on his school break... I probably would have taken my life at that point. But things are better now as I am back seeing my therapist once a week and have seen the psychiatrist once and will continue to see him every other month for the time being. When I did my depression light research project the day after my birthday, the psychologist doing the study looked back over my precvious 13 visits and told me with what I had input on the computer, I had been set back to my 6th visit. So I am basically starting over there as well.

Now every Monday afternoon and Tuesday morning will be taken up seeing Dr's to get my depression back under control.

Hope y'alls pain levels aren't off the charts like mine over the past week with all the screwy weather we have been having. In less than 24 hours here, we got over an inch of rain and there is slight chances for rain through out the next week.

Angel ^j^

[bronco54501]

I'm glad to see ya back, and I'm sorry for your pain.. I had no idea it could travel to the lower, my father has it in his left arm (not dominant) it is a pain to see him struggle with just 1... Hopefully you can get some kinda relief, and I for one wasnt offended at all.. I have those days where the pain overtakes me and just want it to end by any means but then I think of Dominick.....

Hope ya get feeling better....

[Bummer Knees]

Becky, yes I understood what you were going thru. Having recently visited with you and Randy this summer I had some inside information others on this forum did not.

But what helped most was I have also been in your shoes and experienced how a new or different diagnosis tosses our e
emotions on a roller coaster leading to depression in many cases.

I was in an auto accident earlier this week, yesterday as I sat in the doctor's office listening to him ordering a MRI of the spine I again was experiencing the stages of grief. The MRI will be Monday and I pray I will have normal results.

I have posted a thread on the stages of grief.

It is important to realize we are not alone in experiencing the stages of grief and there is a time when we must reach out for help.

Bless you Becky

[Bummer Knees]

Becky, yes I understood what you were going thru. Having recently visited with you and Randy this summer I had some inside information others on this forum did not.

But what helped most was I have also been in your shoes and experienced how a new or different diagnosis tosses our e
emotions on a roller coaster leading to depression in many cases.

I was in an auto accident earlier this week, yesterday as I sat in the doctor's office listening to him ordering a MRI of the spine I again was experiencing the stages of grief. The MRI will be Monday and I pray I will have normal results.

I have posted a thread on the stages of grief.

It is important to realize we are not alone in experiencing the stages of grief and there is a time when we must reach out for help.

Bless you Becky

[monster1963]

I am glad to see you back Becky and I'm sorry to hear the weather is affecting you in a worse way. We are getting a little rain as well and although I'm not to bad right now because it's still kind of cool out this afternoon is gonna be a you know what. We are just gettin a little sprinkle right now but the humidity is at 94% at the moment and it's supposed to be almost a 100 this afternoon. What the hec was I thining when I mover here lol?

With all that said I was just curious if a somewhat drier climate would help any of your ouchies? I know it would mine but I just can't afford to move. I'm kind of brain dead this morning, have been for about a week so I guess I'll quit rambling. Please know I don't come here often (am trying to remember to be here once a day lol) but I'm so happy to see you back. And hopefully I get to meet you soon

Hugs,
monster