Birthday Rant

[UndercovrAngel]

Today (August 6th) brought me to the point where I have given up on every dream I began to have since becoming an injured worker. Someone else, somewhere else has plans for me that don't include getting better and training myself as an advocate for SSDI and getting off of the disability rollercoaster myself. With my hand getting as bad as it is, there is no way I am going to be able to open my own business, let alone help other people get their disability.

And for the 2nd year in a row... there have been no birthday well wishes on the board for me. But I notice everyone else is given well wishes even if they haven't been here for God only knows how long.


Yes, I am having a pity party today/tonight for myself. Turned 49 today and although I had many friends wish me happy birthday on facebook, but when it came right down to it, the ones that really mattered the most didn't have the time to even utter those 2 simple words to me. The first person to utter those 2 words was a stranger standing in line behind me at the ortho's office who realized it was my birthday when the receptionist asked for my birthdate to pull up my record when checking me in.

The second was my ortho Dr who then backed it up with bad news. I am down to a 3% grip on my left hand and have early onset RSD in my entire left arm from shoulder to fingertips. So he referred me back to pain management for a series of stellate ganglion blocks (from 1 to 10) depending upon if they actually work. But even if they do, it only puts it into remission, it doesn't cure it. So now I have 3 limbs fully afflicted by this damned disease.

Randy and I did nothing but fight from Saturtday til the time he went to bed tonight... didn't even get a card or anything from him... nor even a happy birthday. I am only up now (went to bed shortly after 6 pm) because I was hungry and thirsty and need another pain killer.

So, before I say something I can't take back, or hurt someone's feelings....... I am going to take a step back and away from the forum. I don't know when.. or even if I will come back. But I know there are enough people left that are capable of hadling most queries asked here.

Angel ^j^

[jayne]

I am so sorry sweetheart you have had a bad bad week,I am sorry I didnt offer up a birthday greeting for you my only excuse is I am wallowing in my own deep pity party and have been there awhile...May I take this time to offer up my Birthday wishs for you? May Gods blessings rain down upon you Becky and so sorry I was late...We need you here so please dont go

[monster1963]

Oh girl I am so sorry, I didn't even think to come here and wish you a happy birthday. I'm here sporadically as usual. I did get ya on FB, I sure hope you saw it so you know I was thinking about you. I will continue to pray that you will be blessed with better health. I am going to go and research RSD now as I don't know or understand what it is but I know it must be horrible. I hope you still have my number, please call when you feel up to it. Big hugz and lots of love...

[bronco54501]

Ahh heck UA, while under my wifes fb playing her game I had noticed it was your birthday.. My intentions were to log in my fb and wish you a happy birthday, I closed her game and we headed into town... I totaly spaced it out, and I am sorry.. I know its late but H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y..... I hope you dont decide to leave, I have always looked forward to see your posts... It seems we all have a full plate lately, for me its a never ending story and I try to keep my head up and think positive... My dad and I are driving out to montana tomorow to move some more stuff for my oldest.. It is bad timming financialy but it seems to be the only open window for time where we can fit it in...


Once again, I'm sorry for the late birthday wishes and I hope things turn around for you...

[sweet tooth]

angel i am sorry i hardly ever get on here anymore but i am sorry hope you have better daysbut you havent been by yourself in the pity party between the hand surgary getting infected and about to lose my eyesite here comes the kidney numbers have gone to poot and that means another dr app when will it ever end hapy days ahead i hope i can make that

[sweet tooth]

angel i am sorry i hardly ever get on here anymore but i am sorry hope you have better daysbut you havent been by yourself in the pity party between the hand surgary getting infected and about to lose my eyesite here comes the kidney numbers have gone to poot and that means another dr app when will it ever end hapy days ahead i hope i can make that

[bodybuilder1958]

(08-07-2012 01:13 AM)UndercovrAngel Wrote:  Today (August 6th) brought me to the point where I have given up on every dream I began to have since becoming an injured worker. Someone else, somewhere else has plans for me that don't include getting better and training myself as an advocate for SSDI and getting off of the disability rollercoaster myself. With my hand getting as bad as it is, there is no way I am going to be able to open my own business, let alone help other people get their disability.

And for the 2nd year in a row... there have been no birthday well wishes on the board for me. But I notice everyone else is given well wishes even if they haven't been here for God only knows how long.


Yes, I am having a pity party today/tonight for myself. Turned 49 today and although I had many friends wish me happy birthday on facebook, but when it came right down to it, the ones that really mattered the most didn't have the time to even utter those 2 simple words to me. The first person to utter those 2 words was a stranger standing in line behind me at the ortho's office who realized it was my birthday when the receptionist asked for my birthdate to pull up my record when checking me in.

The second was my ortho Dr who then backed it up with bad news. I am down to a 3% grip on my left hand and have early onset RSD in my entire left arm from shoulder to fingertips. So he referred me back to pain management for a series of stellate ganglion blocks (from 1 to 10) depending upon if they actually work. But even if they do, it only puts it into remission, it doesn't cure it. So now I have 3 limbs fully afflicted by this damned disease.

Randy and I did nothing but fight from Saturtday til the time he went to bed tonight... didn't even get a card or anything from him... nor even a happy birthday. I am only up now (went to bed shortly after 6 pm) because I was hungry and thirsty and need another pain killer.

So, before I say something I can't take back, or hurt someone's feelings....... I am going to take a step back and away from the forum. I don't know when.. or even if I will come back. But I know there are enough people left that are capable of hadling most queries asked here.

Angel ^j^

Happy belated birthday my friend, sorry I wasn't there for you when you needed it. No excuses, I screwed up.

[chrischris]

Happy Birthday Angel.

[lucky]

I would just move on and not worry about it. I have never been wished a Happy Birthday on this forum past or present but it does not bother me.

I have my family; I have my close friends. Some on this forum have a really close friendship for years and have a bond with each other.

Do not worry, be happy Angel. You have life and that is so precious AND Happy Belated Birthday.

[sonny1]

I would like to share a memory with you from my beginning here on the forum. When I first joined here I was intimidated and overwhelmed, not knowing how to ask "the right questions". Angel was always right there to help me out, guide me, inform me and even private messaged me back and forth numerous times. I am not on here daily anymore right now and don't know when I will be back more often. I do know that I have not forgotten any of the people that have helped me, shared with me, reached out to me and the ones who let me just be my goofy me!

So with that said, I am sorry Angel that I was not here to wish you a Happy Birthday, I don't think I would have known that information on my own, but it sure doesn't mean that you mean any less to me. I am so grateful for all of the people who have come into my life even if just by computer and I feel comfortable enough that if I left and came back in 2 years, they would still be here for me, as I would be for them, so please don't go. You may not be able to open a business helping people get SSDI, but your knowledge and compassion help people here, you helped me!