01-06-2009, 10:52 PM
Yes, I'm about to rant and I'm sorry. I am about to throw a temper tantrum because God just is not a kind entity. I am also probably going to lose some friends here over this but so be it. I have had enough!
Okay God, you can do whatever suits you when it comes to me. I can lose everything I own, they are only possessions, you can have my health and I will try to do what I can with what I have left.
But do you have to take it out on my animals as well knowing that I can't get the treatment they need? WHY are you doing this???? Have I not yet given enough or trusted in you enough that you need to keep testing me? Have I not spread your name in faith or tried to help others when I can and sometimes even when I can't?
I would much rather you take me, than for my dogs neck to be swollen to twice the size it normally is. Do you just laugh in my face as I call vet after vet to see if they will allow me to take payments...I'm not sure why you aren't laughing, hell they are.
Do you enjoy tormenting people like this???? What have I done that you have so turned your back? I'll take whatever you want to throw at me but please leave my poor little fur baby out of it.
No I'm not looking for hand outs or help. I'm also not answering my phone and I'm turning my PM's off. I am so sick of this crap that I just want to roll up in a ball.
I fully expect I will have to put my little girl down somewhere in the next 48 hours. She is less than 3 years old and such a loving, sweet little thing. I guess that is what you get on this earth when you are full of love.
Please don't quote me any scriptures, I know longer believe in this thing we call God. I can't imagine how a God who is good and just would allow innocent children and animals to suffer so.
Okay God, you can do whatever suits you when it comes to me. I can lose everything I own, they are only possessions, you can have my health and I will try to do what I can with what I have left.
But do you have to take it out on my animals as well knowing that I can't get the treatment they need? WHY are you doing this???? Have I not yet given enough or trusted in you enough that you need to keep testing me? Have I not spread your name in faith or tried to help others when I can and sometimes even when I can't?
I would much rather you take me, than for my dogs neck to be swollen to twice the size it normally is. Do you just laugh in my face as I call vet after vet to see if they will allow me to take payments...I'm not sure why you aren't laughing, hell they are.
Do you enjoy tormenting people like this???? What have I done that you have so turned your back? I'll take whatever you want to throw at me but please leave my poor little fur baby out of it.
No I'm not looking for hand outs or help. I'm also not answering my phone and I'm turning my PM's off. I am so sick of this crap that I just want to roll up in a ball.
I fully expect I will have to put my little girl down somewhere in the next 48 hours. She is less than 3 years old and such a loving, sweet little thing. I guess that is what you get on this earth when you are full of love.
Please don't quote me any scriptures, I know longer believe in this thing we call God. I can't imagine how a God who is good and just would allow innocent children and animals to suffer so.